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kind of

last week she was texting me these weird things and then when i stopped responding to her she sent me something in the mail

that was the first time she contacted me in a couple months though

And you can't think of anything that might have happened to get her attention?

What did she send you?

not really

she sent me a cd labeled "bff" and it had the most bizarre song i've ever heard in my life

idek how to describe it

but the main thing that worries me is that she knows where i live now

More bizarre than Mioda-san's performance?

[ he greatly appreciates mioda's musical talent, but... her music... definitely isn't suited to everyone's tastes. ]

To be fair, it isn't very hard to find out where someone lives here. [ there's only one street. ] But I understand why you'd be concerned about that. I guess I'm lucky that she probably doesn't care enough about me to find out where I am.

[ ... ]

I don't like saying this, but as long as she wants to talk to you... don't you think you should take advantage of that? If she's the only person here who knows the answers behind everything, she's also probably our only chance of understanding it all. I didn't want to associate with someone as horrible as that either... but I think maybe we need to.

around the same level, yeah

you have way too much faith in her if you think she's actually going to tell us the truth. she's shsl despair. she's not going to help us understand anything, she's just going to try to throw us off course to make us despair. there's only two ways we're going to find out the truth: going back to the islands and investigating ourselves, or if one of our classmates shows up here from a time period after the field trip of mutual killing is over.

assuming any of us even make it out alive, anyway.

I'm sure at least one of you made it out. There's no way she ever could have won against all of you.

Anyway, I wouldn't expect her to be forthright about anything, but I'm sure there are things you could pick up on. Everyone gives a clue away once in a while, and you're better at putting those clues together than you give yourself credit for.

But if you really don't want to, that's fine. I'll just talk to her again sometime myself. What makes a person do the kind of things she did... I want to understand her as much as I want to understand what happened.

idk

i don't think i can believe that anything good will come out of you two being together

[ somehow he doesn't think that was an expression of concern for his safety. ]

I know you don't trust me, but you can't think I'd ever do anything to support her. Someone who would make such terrible things happen for the sake of despair is the kind of person I could never forgive.

You and I, who both love Hope's Peak and everything it stands for... we understand each other better than that.

[No, it really wasn't.]

no, i don't understand you at all

but i'll admit that you've been behaving a lot better here than on the islands, so fine, i'll give you one last chance to show me that i can trust you

don't make me regret it

Do you really not get it? Why I do the things I do.

[ he genuinely loved everyone who was on the island, and under any other circumstances, outside of monokuma's rules, contributing to any of their deaths was the absolute last thing he would ever want to do. what reason could he possibly have to bring harm to any of them here?

he looks at the ring on his finger and bites his lip. ]

I'll help you understand it, then. I'll be the kind of person you can count on here, and you'll see that I always have your best interests at heart.

[Hinata wants to believe that there's no longer any reason for Komaeda to want to do the things he did (or tried to do) on the islands again. And that the boy who helped him out after he passed out on the beach, tried to cheer him up when he was feeling anxious about his talent, and even told him that he loved him is the true side of Komaeda, not just some elaborate facade. He really, really wants to believe it. That's why he's granting Komaeda this one last chance in the first place. If he fucks it up at any point in time then Hinata will cut him out of his life forever, and that will be that. But honestly, he doesn't want it to come to that.]

i'll never forgive you if you don't live up to those words

[ it stings, hearing that, though he's not sure what hurts more -- the fear of hinata hating him forever, or the knowledge that he's distrusted that much.

he'll definitely prove it to him. ]

All right.

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